Moving on to more important things, my dashboard for this blog shows me how many times I blogged in each year, and in 2012 I blogged 88 times. This year it's less than 10, so whoops. But when I read back on some of my posts, I noticed a couple things.
- I was incredibly hard on myself.
- I was also incredibly mean to myself.
- I whined about push-ups a LOT. and squats.
- I ramble.
- I learned a lot.
I guess with age comes wisdom or whatever the fuck they say (who is "they" anyways?) but I've been trying to lose weight for a little over 5 weeks now. I've lost 12 pounds and I didn't change a whole lot. I went without any kind of pop (when I say "I went without coke" it sounds a lot like I'm talking about cocaine) of any kind. I had some Dr.Pepper a couple days ago but that's been it. My current plan for everything has been kind of a "do the best you can without driving yourself bat shit crazy trying to be perfect" approach. So far so good. I went to the gym and did cardio, have yet to pick up a weight, I don't know if it's because I go to the gym at peak hours and I'm intimated and anxious in a large space with a lot of people or just because I don't want to. I do have a lot more restrictions on what I can do weight-wise with my back the way it is. No mas deadlifts is rule numero uno per my neurosurgeon. If this was 5 years ago I'd probably say fuck it but I've felt the pain that's associated with not doing what you're told. I'm not as hardcore/stupid as I used to be. I'm still debating the weight loss surgery. We'll see though. I ordered myself a nice christmas gift of a polar ft4 in lime green, it was a solid 30 dollars difference between that and the pink one and idgaf about the color. I also got some salted caramel protein, hoping that it doesn't taste like salty ass.
I start classes 1/9 and also a new job. I took a job with Asheville Gastro doing claims management aka what I've been doing the last almost 4 years until I took this job. I'm thinking that between juggling 2 (maybe 3) classes on subject matter I don't know much about with working 40 hours plus trying to get back on my weight loss grind, well, things may get tricky. Time management hasn't been my forte but I guess like everything else, I'm gonna learn how to get good at that too.
So with the new year fast approaching I've been thinking. I don't know if I have resolutions because I'm still the same sassy bitch everyone has come to know and love over the last 5 years. I don't see that changing anytime soon but I do have some more short term goals. They are as follows;
- Have fun. don't make this a drag or a huge source of stress (that's what college is for)
- Be happy. don't let little things control so much of your day.
- Be smart. work smarter AND harder. You don't get the ass you want by sitting on the one you have.
- 3a (i can't make this format change so 4.3a is now officially a number) Stop attending every argument I'm invited to. Be smart about who I choose to engage with. If we're friends on facebook you probably saw where I spent a decent portion of a day arguing over hb2. I let myself get a lot more riled up over it than I should have, but if you've known me for any length of time you know that I am incredibly opinionated and passionate about what I believe in. So 2017 will be a year of chill.
So nothing super exciting happening here except everything changing all at once and I'm trying to prepare myself for that. It's about to be 2017, the year of massive weight loss, healthy habits and 4.0 GPAs. My first instinct, just so yall know, is to say "when pigs fly" to that 4.0 GPA but I'm smart AF, I just have to actually do the work...which also applies to the weight loss thing.
Anywhoozle, I'm off to pack my gym bag and get ready for an exciting week of werk werk werk werk werk.
xoxo,
Vanessa
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