muscle soreness and introspection.

for some crazy and unknown reason, my ARMS ARE STILL SO SORE. It's actually miserable because it's a soreness I've never felt before. I generally can complain for a hot minute and get over the tightness and be happy I feel like I'm making progress but this is way different. Plus, I have workout #3 today and I'm not looking foward to this one because it's like I have just enough time to get over the sore/achey before I go back for more.

so far, changing how I eat is a lot more work than exercising. Mostly because I work out with Darin on mondays/thursdays, to which I just have to show up and work, not decide what to do, for how long/etc. He's already got that ready and waiting. I didn't gain this weight over night, I won't lose it over night. That's one of my new mantras. That, and "start where you are, use what you have, do what you can" and the ever popular "you have to sweat like a pig and work like a horse to look like a fox". Oh, and one more for the road, "if you're tired of starting over, stop giving up!" (thanks pinterest fitness boards!) Apparently my food log for the first week wasn't up to par, mostly because after you subtract the sugar filled drinks/wine/gatorade and all that, I was eating around 550 calories a day. Mostly because I'm not hungry. My body must think I'm in a third world country or something, but I'm just not interested in eating that much anymore. There's no rhyme or reason to how I eat, mostly just when I'm hungry. Like yesterday, I had half a fish sandwich from burger king, then went to Chili's a few hours later and had some chicken crispers and corn then I had a peice of watermelon before I went to bed, but that's all.

I'm also trying to drink more water, but to be honest, I hate water. It's just so weird to me that it's tasteless and all. I'm probably crazy, I know. Maybe it's because I've had what I like to call my 'princess' mindset, "if I can't drink mountain dew, I just won't drink anything at all" and that's generally not how it should work. Let's be clear, I love me a mountain dew. love. but I don't love what it's done to me/my body, nor do I want diabetes. Which, speaking of, it's about time for my physical. -_- I hate getting them, but I'd rather know sooner than later what's going on. I should probably call tomorrow and schedule that.

I'm so exhausted. I house sat last weekend and I don't think I've caught up on my sleep. Here's to hoping for a short work day (and no PMTTs [mid-year evals for those of you who don't work at the hospital]) and an easy workout (yeah right)....if only I lived in a land where we rode unicorns to work and mtn dew made you skinny. 

a girl can dream, right?
:)