here we go again

Hello from North Carolina!

SO MANY THINGS ARE HAPPENING.

1. Fuck Donald Trump. He's literally the worst. My predictions for the next four years include a lot of scandals and wars because this Cheeto Hitler can't handle his own twitter account. He's too busy tweeting about how the theater kids are talking to Mike Pence and SNL is making fun of him. Here's a thought, don't give them so much material you igorant fuckface.

2. I'm going back to school. Back to school, back to school, to prove to dad I'm not a fool... jk it has nothing to do with my parents and everything to do with me being sick of healthcare. Digital Media Technology will be my new program. It seems to be a mix of software development, graphic design and my electives are likely going to be marketing classes. I'm doing two online classes starting in January because I want to avoid going to actual school for as long as possible.

3. I'm having weight loss surgery. I've been thinking about this for a while and talked over everything with my favorite Lindsay. I went to the seminar and signed up, my first real appointment is in January because that's when my deductible and out of pocket costs start over and i'm sure as fuck not paying all this money in December to have it count for nothing in January. I've been actively trying to lose weight because Mission's program makes you lose 5 percent of your weight before they schedule the procedure. I decided on the sleeve instead of gastric bypass, and I'm super nervous and excited about it all. I haven't had any carbonated drinks including diet in almost 2 weeks. I've replaced breakfast with a protein shake, lunch too. Dinner is just a whatever I feel like as long as portions are reasonable. I've lost 10ish pounds but today was a shit show. I'm an emotional eater, but tomorrow will be better. I'm trying to stop with the all in or all out mentality. I'm going to start throwing in 20 minutes, 3x a week, cardio sessions and go from there. Maybe do some lifting if I'm feeling froggy.

4. My mama has cancer. Also fyi tihs list is in no order of importance, duh. Breast cancer, she starts chemo on the 15th. She's going to be just fine, but it's just weird to hear that your mom as cancer. You hear about it happening to other people but you never imagine it to be your own mom.

That's pretty much it. It seems like a lot when I write it out and it is, i guess, but I feel like this is the norm for me. Busy, insane and scary. I'm the same old Nessie I've always been tho, sassy as fuck, obsessing over calories and spending too much time on instagram.

See ya when I see ya, internet friends <3