here we go.

I've had a blog since 2009 I believe, and I was looking back and thinking about how much stuff has changed. I was working at the retirement home, trying to figure out how to get a decent job and what I was going to be when I "grew up". Which, God knows if/when that will ever happen haha. Recently, I hired a personal trainer and am embarking on a new journey. A chance to start over, if you will. This blog will follow my journey as I start over, learning to eat better, exercise more and live a healthier and hopefully happier life.

The basics.
For those of you who don't know me, which, I'm hoping if you're reading this you at least know my name is Vanessa. I prefer to be called Ness or Nessie, but Vanessa will do in a pinch. I'm 22, and I love all things free, fun or crafty. Preferably a nice combonation of the 3. My birthday is basically my favorite day of the year, and I'm an expert at guitar hero (one day that will be a marketable skill!). I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up, something in healthcare, I think. I love to write and I love music, I can't play anything or read music, I just like to listen to it.

So far on this journey, I've lost 10lbs in about 2 weeks. I've cut out all soft drinks from my diet and I've cut out the majority of the fast food. I've hired a personal trainer over at One on One Fitness and his name is Darin. I've worked out with him twice (yesterday being workout #2) and I'm definatley feeling the burn. and the sore. and the tired. and the desire for a mtn dew.

I'm not going to lie, working out is one of the hardest things I've EVER done. Especially because I have this level of anxiety that I doubt has ever been reached by another human before, and working out one on one (as the name suggests) is a little(lot) anxiety provoking for me. Mostly because it's unknown. But let me just say, Darin is amazing. It's never awkward and sometimes it's like he knows exactly what I'm thinking, plus, so far, he hasn't asked me to do anything I can't do. It's amazing how much you can sweat in a 45 minute period of time. I've done enough squats in the past 2 sessions that i'd almost give my first born to never have to do another one again. While i'm working out, i'm fairly sure I'm going to die in the gym before I ever get skinny/healthy. however, on the way home when i'm on an endorphin high, I'm like THIS IS GREAT! and bouncing off the walls. By the time I get home from sweeten creek road, I have a hard time getting out of my car. It's a rough cycle, but hopefully by the time my 23rd birthday rolls around, things will be a little easier.

so to recap, life is rough, I'm tired, but hopefully getting healthier day by day.
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