What a week.

Surprise you guys! I blog when I want. And I wanted. 

can we please talk about how Christmas is in less than a week?! I have a lot to talk about this week so get comfortable.

 

Kevin, much like Darin, is under the impression that poptarts aren't the best choice of food. I'm going to start a protest. They have real fruit in them. They can't lie on the box. Don't try to discredit me and my facts I found on the google. if anyone would like to join my protest and by my guess that will be approximately zero of you, let me know. or don't. I can be a single woman protest.

 

I can't decide if I feel like my legs are gonna be super sore or not at all, because there's never a happy medium with me. I have a pretty addictive and impulsive personality I've decided. I'm also really impatient and give in easily to peer pressure. thankfully none of my friends have ever offered me cocaine because given the above mentioned personality traits, well, let's just all thank our lucky stars bizarre is my specialty and only a few select people can stand to be around me for extended periods of time hahaha I am seriously a messtonight. What else is new? After a less than stellar morning, today's workout was much needed. Plank/working with Kevin is a highlight of my week because it's kinda like my "me" time. Weird as that sounds, I don't have to do anything but exercise. No setting anything up, no worrying about how many people are judging, it's simple. And simple is my favorite. I'm beginning to like things I never imagined I would, and I think it's because my legs don't feel so weak. Today was full of front squats, back squats, pistol/one leg squats which are ridiculously hard. Lunges too, and I actually didn't hate them, or the squats...which, WHAT. Read back around this time last year in this hot mess I call a blog and see what my number 1 most hated "I'm gonna kill myself if I have to do another one" exercise was ....squats.  I think push ups have taken the lead on that. On a better note, there were also 44lb kettlebell swings! Kevin gave me an orange one to swing and it was incredibly light and before I thought better of it, I said that. But, easy workouts aren't really workouts. because there is no work involved. Plus 44lbs is a lot for homegirl here.

 

I went to Zumba Tuesday night again and this time brought my precious little Carrie Owensby with me. She's been one of my biggest cheerleaders through this whole journey and I was excited to knock out an hour of cardio and not feel like such an assclown alone. I finally figured out the warm up song my instructor uses. Timber by pitbull and kesha! And it seems like since I've started zumba again, non-dance cardio seems a lot less fun but the rush teaches the classes at the most sub-optimal times. I get 6pm is good for people who get off work at 5:30 but those of us who get done with work earlier, well, not so much. cry me a river, right?

 

I got some exciting new changes to my workout routine and that's not bullshit. I actually petitioned Darin for a mini-leg day routine because I don't always (and by don't always, I mean rarely ever) do the same thing with Kevin, and I actually like it. Back squats, Romanian deads and leg extensions oh my! that doesn't even work (I was going for the lions/tigers and bears oh my thing) and I don't think I can even do some of that stuff with Kevin but I don't care. I do what I want. One of my goals was a 100lb seated leg extension and I was hanging around 90 for working sets before I started with Kevin, leg day got cut, so I don't know where I am there. Hopefully close. But anyways, back to the real excitement. Now, instead of back and biceps, it's back, biceps and hammies! and by hammies I don't mean I eat ham, I mean hamstrings. and all God's children said amen. Those are my three favorite things. Then I have chest and triceps. My two least favorite. Then shoulders, quads and conditioning. I'm still riding the "no abs" train. Darin says they're in the workouts just not directly and Kevin said he preferred the direct approach. I prefer no approach while I'm throwing information out to the interwebs. I tend to shy away from shit I suck at, and abs and chest exercises would be something a 2 year old could beat me at. I know some people are all like oh, find a weakness and kill it! and I'm all, find a weakness and leave it alone!  

Also this is bothering me. How people choose to eat and be active is THEIR. BUSINESS. Not mine. Don't be the asshole on Instagram eating pie and hashtagging "is this paleo". Here's a hashtag. You're an asshole. How about that? Or if people want to Zumba, body pump, run on the treadmill, crossfit, use the battle ropes for not-their-intended-purpose, I don't give a hot damn. It just drives me crazy when people want to be the exercise or food police of everyone else's life. How about you focus on being the best you that you can be and let everyone else do the same? 

This week was somewhat rough, I'm just really tired haha. And my motivation is kind of lacking. I've been at this 18 months-ish and I've lost 106ish pounds. That's wonderful. But there are people who lose 150lbs in that amount of time. But I'm not them. The internal struggle is real. I'm proud I've lost that much but I also think I shouldn't have been that overweight to have to lose that much. This is my life. But I'm here in this moment in time, and I have things to do. 2014 might be the first year I can wear a bikini. What. That's a strange thought. But we'll seeeeeee. 

 

I'm hoping Santa comes through and brings me a 6 pack bag for Christmas. and by Santa I mean my mom. My wonderful twinsie got me an ipod shuffle for Christmas and couldn't wait to give it to me :) so now, I have no excuse to be distracted during my workout because I can technically lock my phone in a locker and have my music on my ipod......yeahhhh. it's a great idea in theory. I just get anxious being away from my phone, #firstworldproblems. My friends live in my phone. the struggle is real yall. Also, because I get really obsessive over numbers, especially on my heart rate monitor, I went without it tonight. Mostly because I left it at home and didn't have a choice. I have no idea how many calories I burned or how my heart rate was through the workout. I know it was up a couple times because I have this ridiculous habit of holding my breath when I do stuff, especially deadlifts. We did some sumo deads and at the end of the set I thought I was gonna die. I don't know why I do that, it's a terrible habit but breathing and exercising at the same time is hard.

 

Anyways this is my life in a nutshell/essay. I have some Christmas shopping to do and by some, I mean I need to start. Also, if you're looking for more entertainment on a daily basis follow me on instagram if you aren't, or I'll hate you forever. just kidding. kind of. @vkfreeman. 

Oh and merry Christmas y'all!