and the surprises just keep coming. and some pictures.

how much can change in the course of a week?

let me just tell you.

whew. it's been a week. First things first, I rejoined weight watchers and today is day 4 of adherence which is legit a new record for me. I'm 6.6 pounds down (water weight) and weight watchers gave me MORE points to eat because they want to slow my weight loss. No thank you, I adjusted it back down to what it was. Mostly because I'm not going to lose 6 pounds next week. I'm not retarded. But anyways usually after 2 days of decency, I get a case of the fuck its. But I've been eating what I want, just either halving it to make it fit my points or changing around other meals. I'm likely going to be shot in the head at some point for this next statement but IIFYM and Weight Watchers have a LOT in common. Like you legitimately can eat what you want as long as you can make the numbers work. nothing is off limits, except get this. I bought this box of pasta salad like months ago and Rebecca and I were going through the cabinets taking inventory....ONE serving of this hidden valley ranch pasta salad TAKING YOUR JUDGING FACES OFF, has 56 POINTS. FIFTY. FUCKING. SIX. I mean granted it's made with milk, mayo and some ranch seasoning and I bet it's absolutely delish, it has 80 grams of fat in LESS than 1 cup of it prepared as directed. So needless to say it's going elsewhere that is not my belly. I can't fit that in my points but I couldn't fit that in my macros either. Weight watchers lets you off the hook with the carbs in fruit and stuff, but I'm also not eating 10 bananas a day either. I don't love bananas anymore, I gagged on one. Mine basically have to be green for me to eat them, ripe bananas (every time I have to type that I sing the "this shit is bananas, b a n a n a s" song from Gwen Stefani, that I don't remember the name of so I remember how to spell it). And I've gotten a gallon in,4 days in a row. I just decided that I'm giving weight watchers a LEGIT 4 weeks of effort. period. I don't give anything enough time to work because I'm SO impatient. So there's that.

and there's the fact that I enrolled in the AAPC CPC course. American Association of Professional Coders, Certified Professional Coder.

I have to get all this knowledge

in my weee little brain. Ha! just kidding, 3 of those massive books (ICDM9, CPT and HCPCS 2) get to go to the test with me because they're legit just pages of numbers in size 5 font.

 

 

and this is like a legit class format. I haven't taken a college class in a few years, because I'm not super good at that. I thought this would be my like ACSM CPT stuff, where you study on your own then take the test. NOPE. I have a "teacher" who I have to email to grade my chapter work then take the chapter test and you have 2 attempts on everything to make a 70. On the chapter test, if you dont make a 70 you have one more attempt then you basically have to appeal and ask for a redo. Let's all hope that doesn't happen to me. So far so good though, I think my overall average is a 97 but it's just insurance basics, anatomy and medical terminology..aka everything I've learned being a CNA and working at the hospital the last 5 years. Its a 16 week class, and I'm 1 week in and on chapter 3, so here's to being off to a good start.

 

I'm also on my own at the moment as far as workouts go. I put things on hold with Darin for a few weeks. I wasn't doing anything like I should be (DOES THIS SOUND FAMILIAR) and it was just not gonna get any better. you know what? maybe it's time for me to be on my own for a bit. Darin cant be telling me what to do on the weekly for the next 60 years. I mean, at some point I have to be responsible and I have to live with the choices I make. So, if in 4 weeks I've crashed and burned (I'm 50/50 on the whole situation at the moment) we'll go from there. I have the rest of my life to get good at all this and right now I'm just trying to get back to a place where following any kind of plan isn't so foreign. I'm treating every day like it's the first day. and so far, so good. The decent method you follow is better than the perfect method you quit.

 

Where do I go from here? wherever the fuck I want. I've been at this for almost 2 years and I've done way too much work and spent entirely too much time, money, effort and sweat to go back to where I started. fuck that. I'm actually beginning to like me. So no more back sliding. I've spent the last 7 months in a constant backslide.

 

I started here.

 

 

 

 Now we here. baby traps. and new glasses and hair and a tank top. AND I'M AT THE GYM.

 

I think there's about 85 pounds of difference in those two pictures, as far as weight goes. My plan is to lose all the weight and get all the muscles and do all the things. Errthang I want. Right now, that means I'm off to do a leg workout, go to the grocery store and some homework.

 

there's your monthly dose of weird pictures and cussing.

 

you. are. welcome.